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=Vispir

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About Me Official Beta Tester Model Vispir25/Female/United States Recent Activity Deviant for 1 Year
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I finally broke down and made an account on paypal for donations. Let me say I feel embarrassed to have to turn to perfect strangers for help. I have always been a very independent woman, so me having to ask for help bugs the heck out of me. But for those who do donate to help me pay for medical treatments, I love you all and can not thank you enough.


For the few who have donated your hard earned money to help me, I can't thank you enough. One day I will find a way to repay your kindness.


Just drop by paypal and look up my email address here on my DA.

Visitors

July in Alaska...

Journal Entry: Mon Jul 13, 2009, 8:02 PM





IS FREAKING COLD!!! Well at least to this Texas native it is. lol.

Hi everyone! Please forgive me for not being on here very often and not making an update sooner. There has been so much going on lately.

Well, my flight from Texas to Alaska was nice and smooth. I slept most of the time since it was an all nighter. I got to the airport here in the town I am in and talk about awkward. My husband picked me up from the airport and something just felt off....seriously off. We barely said two words to each other. I stopped by and saw my children at daycare. My oldest screamed "MOMMY!!!" at the top of her lungs and ran over too me asking me if my booboo was better. (she was talking about my stomach)My youngest crawled over to me saying "mamamama". I was excited to see her crawl because she wasn't crawling when I left in April. I broke down crying and held them both. I can't explain in words how happy I was to see them and hold them again. I wanted to stay or take them home with me but I was so exhausted from the trip and with the 3 hour time difference, I knew there was no way I could have tended to them that day. So Kris (my husband) brought me home and he went back to work. I got my bags situated and plopped down on the bed and slept.

Do you know how when you get a guy feeling and things just dont add up, it eats and eats at you because you can't figure it out? Ok ladies...when your guy all of a sudden starts accusing you of cheating or having an affair KNOWING you haven't, what does it usually mean? Yep...it means he has a guilty conscience. Well, for several days I was constantly accused of cheating while I was in Texas. Oh come on...it must have been between throwing up blood and having IV's jabbed in my arms non stop.

Long story short....I busted him....big time. Even talked to the chick involved in the situation.

Lets fast forward out of this depressing chat.

I am currently undergoing counseling for my PTSD and to help myself deal with my husbands very bad decision. I am not sure if it is working yet. It is still too early to tell. I am going to be flying into Anchorage sometime soon to undergo another endoscopy and possibly surgery. Hopefully it will help with 80% of my health problems.

I am spending all my time with my children and enjoying life as much as I can. Living each day as though nothing bad has happened is very hard. I refuse to let my children see me suffer though.

Anyway, I can not thank each and everyone of you enough for your kind support, warm words, very generous donations, and heart warming emails. I am in your debt. I love each and every one of you with all my heart and wish there was some way I could pay back your kindness.

  • Mood: Annoyed
  • Eating: ice
  • Drinking: tea

Devious Info

  • Current Residence: Anchorage, AK
  • deviantWEAR sizing preference: Small - Medium
  • Interests: Horse Training, Gaming, Rock Climbing
  • Favourite movie: Pride and Prejudice, Memoirs of a Geisha, V for Vendetta
  • Favourite band or musician: Disturbed, Tool, Mudvayne
  • Favourite genre of music: Hard Rock
  • Favourite poet or writer: Robert Frost
  • Favourite photographer: Darkmatterzone
  • Favourite game: Warhammer Online, world of warcraft, Halo, Spore, Guitar Hero, Gears of War 2
  • Favourite gaming platform: PC or Xbox 360
  • Favourite cartoon character: Stewie from Family Guy
  • Personal Quote: Looks can only get you so far in this world but an education can take you to a whole other universe.

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~hmerino:iconhmerino:
Let us know how are you, dear Vispir. Hope you´re better by now.
Wed Jul 8, 2009, 7:25 AM
*nomads:iconnomads:
Vispir, I hope everything is getting better in Alasks, since you return. Please let me know if I can di anything for you. Dodonations? Have you considered selling a few of your prints. I have a could that I would like to buy. Paul
Tue Jul 7, 2009, 8:23 PM
~TenaciousG3:iconTenaciousG3:
Hey Vispir - not sure you remember me, we used to chat a bit on MM. I'm sorry to hear you're having such a rough time. My thoughts are with you - best of luck!
Tue Jul 7, 2009, 3:51 PM
*colt51:iconcolt51:
Just so ya know... :cuddle: :love:
Sat Jun 27, 2009, 10:38 PM
~leighG:iconleighG:
I just have to get my paypal account fully verified, and I will send you a donation tuesday sweetheart
Thu Jun 25, 2009, 7:04 AM
~leighG:iconleighG:
it has torn it out that much I cannot even grammatize properly LOL, keep your head up darlin', you amaze me
Thu Jun 25, 2009, 2:46 AM
~leighG:iconleighG:
OMG, you're saga has just about torn my heart out and stamped all over the damn thing LOL, I will try to help out any way I can
Thu Jun 25, 2009, 2:45 AM
~JeffreyHiAtt:iconJeffreyHiAtt:
You are one incredible person.
Mon Jun 22, 2009, 1:12 PM
~Kharinn:iconKharinn:
I hope you get better... from all points of view. And I hope your husband comes back to his senses and sees what a great woman you are. All he needs to do is open his eyes. May whatever power rules this world help you heal :)
Mon Jun 22, 2009, 10:08 AM
~Samson42007:iconSamson42007:
I wish oyu the best.. hope all works out for you... I sorta know where youre coming from.. You will be in my thoughts n prayers.. :hug:
Mon Jun 22, 2009, 3:30 AM

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I wish I could afford to donate, but I can not.
I want to wish you a good night, and I will keep you in my prayers, Be strong sweetie.
You're a beautiful person, inside and out.
:heart::huggle::heart:

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All my best to you and all my prayers for you. I know what it's like and I have been through it before. Just keep the faith and don't give up. God bless.
How are things? any update?

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Hey, how are you doing?
hey how you doing .. feel better my friend :hug: :blowkiss:

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