IS FREAKING COLD!!! Well at least to this Texas native it is. lol.

Hi everyone! Please forgive me for not being on here very often and not making an update sooner. There has been so much going on lately.

Well, my flight from Texas to Alaska was nice and smooth. I slept most of the time since it was an all nighter. I got to the airport here in the town I am in and talk about awkward. My husband picked me up from the airport and something just felt off....seriously off. We barely said two words to each other. I stopped by and saw my children at daycare. My oldest screamed "MOMMY!!!" at the top of her lungs and ran over too me asking me if my booboo was better. (she was talking about my stomach)My youngest crawled over to me saying "mamamama". I was excited to see her crawl because she wasn't crawling when I left in April. I broke down crying and held them both. I can't explain in words how happy I was to see them and hold them again. I wanted to stay or take them home with me but I was so exhausted from the trip and with the 3 hour time difference, I knew there was no way I could have tended to them that day. So Kris (my husband) brought me home and he went back to work. I got my bags situated and plopped down on the bed and slept.

Do you know how when you get a guy feeling and things just dont add up, it eats and eats at you because you can't figure it out? Ok ladies...when your guy all of a sudden starts accusing you of cheating or having an affair KNOWING you haven't, what does it usually mean? Yep...it means he has a guilty conscience. Well, for several days I was constantly accused of cheating while I was in Texas. Oh come on...it must have been between throwing up blood and having IV's jabbed in my arms non stop.

Long story short....I busted him....big time. Even talked to the chick involved in the situation.

Lets fast forward out of this depressing chat.

I am currently undergoing counseling for my PTSD and to help myself deal with my husbands very bad decision. I am not sure if it is working yet. It is still too early to tell. I am going to be flying into Anchorage sometime soon to undergo another endoscopy and possibly surgery. Hopefully it will help with 80% of my health problems.

I am spending all my time with my children and enjoying life as much as I can. Living each day as though nothing bad has happened is very hard. I refuse to let my children see me suffer though.

Anyway, I can not thank each and everyone of you enough for your kind support, warm words, very generous donations, and heart warming emails. I am in your debt. I love each and every one of you with all my heart and wish there was some way I could pay back your kindness.